Won!

To my greatest surprise in years, I won the A2 category, Grand Muse division of the 33th PTNA piano competition!
This was my 3rd attempt of the competition itself, and 1st of the category, which allows participants who majored in piano at college, and not surprisingly, many of the competitors are piano instructors. Therefore, I did not even dream of making the national final, which was held on Aug. 22th, and thought it would be lucky if I make the regional finals. I was 2nd place at the 1st regional final, which meant that I did not make the national final. This made me at the brink of losing this year's competition, but at the same time, it wiped off my tension to focus on playing the piano at the 2nd regional final.
Actally, I have never practiced more seriously (though not for many hours) in the last one week before the national final than ever, and it brought me one notch up, I believe.

My performance is up (without prior notice to performers, though...)on the PTNA channel on YouTube as:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e_htE3ahLew
Watching my own performance always makes me ashamed, and this one is no exception. Need more concentration and careful practice...
Anyway, it's clear that I need much more work on this Scriabin's masterpiece, and sincerely hope to give more life to it.

competition final ... tomorrow

will be on the finals tomorrow, play Scariabin's op.70 as did in the qualifying and the regional finals.
it feels like beyond 'perfection is unattainable.' rather, the more i practice, the further i am from what this pieces demands.
what i can do best at this moment, is to accept that my performance will have faults, but never be afraid of them, and devote the whole of myself to let the music live and flow as it wants.